| well what am i supposed to do? update you on my entire life since the last real post? april?? APRIL TO NOW?!?!?! i don't think so.
a montage, if you will:
APRIL - MAY:
finished my first year at Sheridan...exams were smooth...year end show was great, mom and nan flew to TO to see it.
MAY:
broke up with boyfriend of year and half. cried very little. mostly because this is the second time (and final) we broke up and i decided i cried enough and hurt enough the first time. reading "he's just not that into you" and getting a new boyfriend right away seemed to remedy this anyway!
JUNE:
new boyfriend. we drank a lot. we lasted a month.
JULY:
new job! cool job. worked as assistant director at festival antigonish. went out 5 nights a week, and went to work hungover often. not a good system, but i didn't know any better. plus, i seemed to have fun.
AUGUST:
throughout july and august, will admit, slept over at many random houses and felt like i did the walk of shame even more.
SEPTEMBER:
back to TO. stayed in school a week. misery commenced. i withdrew from the program and decided that roommates were great, so i thought id stay and work till january. randomly woke up one morning and decided to fly home two days later and surprise everyone. (for some, this didn't work out as well as i'd imagined. one in particular.)
OCTOBER:
settled back into antigonish, NS, worked at waitress. shitty shitty job. still paying rent in ON. shity shitty deal. BUT. i like being here. i missed my friends lots.
NOVEMBER:
this is where i've gotten. men are mysteries to me, but i love trying to figure them out. i am currently dealing with two.
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| i've been a livejournal owner since 2003. that's pretty ridiculous. i don't use it anymore.
although apparently it's a pretty sexual experience so...i'm reviving it for my lover.
i have stories that could haunt you!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| we just got a brand new computer.......thank fuck for no more isolation.
i might just post more often!
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| | Time: | 08:48 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/worried.gif) worried |
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| i haven't seen or heard from brad since friday afternoon.
it is now sunday morning.
i hope toronto didnt eat him
(in an attempt to make this worry-ridden note light hearted)
im actually really scared.
he's probably just being an idiot guy that doesn't think i'll worry.
.....but what if he's not? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| my conscience is a psychopath. completely COMPLETELY guilt ridden, anal, and relentless.
my conscience is not selfish.
but I AM. selfish. me. i want things to go my way, i want a bit of everything.
but my conscience gets angry when i do these things.
but i still do them because i want everything.
this poses a conundrum. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i'm being all birnbaum-esque here, but i too am super proud.
83% average and 3.83 GPA! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| so ...guess what.
TBAG hits NS next Thursday.
Antigonish on friday!! the 22nd!
<3 | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... | | Category | Your Score | Average | | Self-Lovin' | 65%
Explored the pleasures of the flesh | 64.7% | | Shamelessness | 73.8%
It takes a couple of drinks | 78.9% | | Sex Drive | 68.4%
A fool for love, but not always | 77.2% | | Straightness | 17.9%
Knows the other body type like a map | 43.9% | | Gayness | 92.9%
Repressed, are we? | 83.7% |
| Fucking Sick | 87.6%
Refreshingly normal | 89.9% |
You are 66.5% pure
Average Score: 72.4%
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| clap a your hands just a because
don't you know that where i am ain't where i was
not for the life of me
bo do dee oh
NOT FOR THE LIFE OF ME | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| so much for you saying you'd be there for me, no matter what position we were in.
i don't know if i've ever felt more let down or more unimpressed.
i don't know if i should be feeling angry or sad, but i definitely feel something.
all i feel is that i'm missing something, and i don't know if i'll be able to find it anywhere else.
fuck my life. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| you know when you really want something?
and then...surprisingly, you get it.
and then you realize you don't want it anymore?
fuck. my. life? | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 01:20 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/lazy.gif) lethargic |
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| ok so, the symptoms just keeping getting more frequent and more varied.
they are as follows:
- bladder problems (OUCH TOWN)...i wont elaborate!
- lower back pain...kind of like someone keeps punching me?
- trouble concentrating
- trouble remembering things
- extreme fatigue almost 24/7
- lethargy
- lack of sex drive (this sucks big time)
SO...i could have any of the following:
1) a UTI
2) a kidney infection
3) hypothyroidism
4) chronic fatigue syndrome
5) depression
or all of them?
i think it's 2 and possibly 3 according to direct symptoms though.
regardless, this sucks and i hurt! | | comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment |
| someone explain things to me.
someone please, just explain things and make it easier.
I don't mean take on the role of psychologist for me,
just be.
It seems as every day goes by, I retract from everyone just a little bit more.
I choose not to talk to them, not to be their friend, avoiding contact for some reason. I wish I knew that reason, because I love people!
Why do I act like this?
Maybe I'm really a shy, introverted person I never knew about.
Because I was never like this before. And it still doesn't sound like me. Because...I'm not shy. And I'm generally not introverted.
I was always happy-go lucky, outgoing, personable. Was that always just a front I was putting on? Is it a front I still put on most of the time?
Who am I?
Where am I wearing down?
WHAT THE FUCK MATE ANSWER THAT! | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| Something crazy has to happen this weekend.
Something won't be the same after this weekend.
Nope it won't!
JUST WAIT. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| chantelle....
do you remember decorating our apartment for xmas?
and going trick or treating?
that
me want
now | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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